memory blackouts
Posted by dollsaga on January 29, 2012
I bumped into an ex-coworker on my way to Target yesterday, she was so excited to see me, we chatted for a while, it was embarrassing that I did not recall her name no matter how hard I tried. we worked at the same company but in different locations, we had close work relationships, we used to call each other almost everyday, it lasted for 3 years… but I suffered memory blackouts yesterday, I just couldn’t recall her name. A few of other faces of my former coworkers also came to my mind, but only faces, I could not remember their names, either…
The entire day I kept thinking, after 18 hours, her name finally came up. what a shame! this coworker is very very pretty, she looks exactly like this ballerina doll I saw in Target, the shpae of the face, the eyes, the hair and the skintone, all resemble her… so I purchased this doll and gave her a model muse body, from now on, I’ll never forget my coworker’s name again.
my school mates remembered me as someone who had super memories. it was kind of true. I guess things change as you age.
besides, I have not been feeling well since the new year began, I have nightmares every night, its all about losing somthing… such as I lost my passport, I lost my suitcase, I lost my keys…
I got a feeling that something bad would happen, and it happened. one package I sent via usps never reached its destination and could not be located. the other package I expected to receive never came as schdeuled, I had to call USPS and went to my local post office twice, this one was found. I am sure this isnt the worst, something worse is going to happen… I try to stay positive but I am under anxiety attack–perhaps that’s one of the reasons I had Memory blackouts.
everyone has worries. I have reasons to worry more b/c of the situation I am in.
dollsaga said
saddly, my pretty-doll-like coworker isnt in great shape, she was on her way to a clinic when we encountered each other. she looked thin & very pale. she also told me another ex coworker of mine is battling with cancer, its not treatable…
Susan M. Cottrell said
It’s always sad to hear a person in distress. I have my own issues and can empathize with you, more importantly I’ll think of you in my prayers. Please do not hesitate to ask for a shoulder when you feel down; it’s important to be reminded of your value especially through times like these when you’re not the person you were at your peak performance. I am not the type of person who will hold seances, candle vigils or pray over your head, so I hope that’s not a problem!
Please love yourself and try to relax, this REALLY helps. Please be good to yourself.
Susan
dollsaga said
Thank you Susan! Each of us faces challenges life brings, there are times that we dont see hope at all… I try not to give up on myself… you are so right, some self-love & self-confidence are needed, thanks for the comfroting words… wish the situation turns for better… sending you my best wishes as well…
Cindy in MO said
Helen I am so sorry that you have been so distressed and I hope and “pray” that you feel better soon!
Please take care!
God Bless,
Cindy
dollsaga said
Thank you so much, Cindy! its so very kind of you!
Kirsten said
I hope your friend does as well as she can – cancer is horrible. I had it (stage 4) and I am lucky to be here. It makes you count your blessings and sometimes we have way more than we know. Don’t worry about things like forgetting names – we all have so much going on in our lives and it’s just so normal. It’s more important that you were happy to see your former co-worker and that you have the compassion and concern about what she is dealing with. I wish you and your friend all the best. Your dolls are gorgeous!
dollsaga said
Thank you, Kirsten! Your fighting spirirts make you a survivor who sets the example for the rest of us to learn. Thanks!!
dollsaga said
I am still constantly having these “lost dreams”, usually, I lost my own stuffs in my dreams, such as luggage, passport.. but last night, in my wild dreams, someone asked me to baby-sit 2 kids, I took these 2 kids to ride a bus, at the ends, I was not even on the original bus I boarded, and these 2 kids were nowhere to be found…I was so scared, and I woke up…