I bumped into an ex-coworker on my way to Target yesterday, she was so excited to see me, we chatted for a while, it was embarrassing that I did not recall her name no matter how hard I tried. we worked at the same company but in different locations, we had close work relationships, we used to call each other almost everyday, it lasted for 3 years… but I suffered memory blackouts yesterday, I just couldn’t recall her name. A few of other faces of my former coworkers also came to my mind, but only faces, I could not remember their names, either…
The entire day I kept thinking, after 18 hours, her name finally came up. what a shame! this coworker is very very pretty, she looks exactly like this ballerina doll I saw in Target, the shpae of the face, the eyes, the hair and the skintone, all resemble her… so I purchased this doll and gave her a model muse body, from now on, I’ll never forget my coworker’s name again.
my school mates remembered me as someone who had super memories. it was kind of true. I guess things change as you age.
besides, I have not been feeling well since the new year began, I have nightmares every night, its all about losing somthing… such as I lost my passport, I lost my suitcase, I lost my keys…
I got a feeling that something bad would happen, and it happened. one package I sent via usps never reached its destination and could not be located. the other package I expected to receive never came as schdeuled, I had to call USPS and went to my local post office twice, this one was found. I am sure this isnt the worst, something worse is going to happen… I try to stay positive but I am under anxiety attack–perhaps that’s one of the reasons I had Memory blackouts.
everyone has worries. I have reasons to worry more b/c of the situation I am in.
